First day

I know this is just the beginning of firsts for my girl..and I know this is not the last of my tear filled days. Ok, so lets premise this by saying, I am pregnant...and very very over the top hormonal right now:) ok, so lets move on!

So, today was the first day of Addy's dance class. First of all I thought I signed her up for a fun recreational class that would last for eight weeks. Oh no, I signed her up for a full year apparently with a production at the end!! oh my...

Anyways, second stage of clueless mom part two..I didn't have my child decked to the nines in dance attire that would put me back a fine penny..woops..

So again, feeling like a moron. And than the class begins..oh wait, mom, you can convince your two year old to go in a class by herself with strangers while you stay outside..awesome...so I sat in my dress at the door smashed up so other moms could take pictures as my child ran back and forth to me completely clueless to what was going on. She seemed happy as she got to run around and there was music going..but than I looked to see that all the other little girls were listening to the teacher somewhat following her as they helped hands in the circle and did the hokey pokey..while my kid..well...she was dancing by herself in the mirror:) And of course running back and forth to give me multiple kisses:) So I am sitting there feeling like a smuck. My kids that kid, the odd one out, the free spirit in her own happy world, but the odd one out. And than the environment caught up with her, after I kept telling her she needed to stay in the room, and than the tears came:( and than the took her ribbon away and it was game over...

So needless to say, this hormonal mom who is completely clueless and has no clue what she is doing was overwhelmed, frustrated and wanting to cry with my baby girl. We will try again next week, but I am just not sure. I am not sure if my kids going to be one of these obliging cooperative kids, or the one who just wants to do her thing..she is two..and that's what I feel, but when you are spinning looking around at whats going on and feel completely out of place and like you are the odd man out, well, you panic. But what my head has been spinning about all day is I parented re-actively, but now I am trying to decide how I want to parent this situation. Do I just let her do what she wants to do, run in and out and see what happens..just go with it, until the teacher tells me otherwise, or do I tough love her and make her stick it out and keeping pushing her to stay in the class even if ends up in tears??? I don't know! I am trying to find this balance between not being a toddlers and tiara's mom, as that is NOT my style at all, but at the same time I don't want my kid to try new things, or be afraid, or give up...but is two too young to expect any of this???? again, I am so torn today, and the learning curves, with the lack of sleep don't make for a sane mama:)

What I do know is this...I stinkin love my kid, and think she is the coolest little person and the world, as much as I feel the social pressures, I want to rise above it and let me kid be who God made her to be:) That much I know to be true..the rest, well I guess one day I will figure it out:)

Maan Farms

I have become quite a fan of groupon this past year, and its for reasons like these. Finding great deals to places I wouldn't normally think to go to, at a great price, and having a great day! Its a great source for entertainment! So a few months back I found a 50% groupon for a place called mans farm in Abbotsford, so this so this Saturday we went to check it out! It cost us a whole six bucks, which was totally worth it. The groupon was for two people, and she let us take addy in for free which was great because she said usually they charge for two year olds which I think is a little silly:) So I guess if we were paying regular price it would have been $18, and we were there two hours..not sure if it would be worth it. But again for $6 it was so worth it:) they had a great big sandbox, and slide, goats, bunnies and other great animals to see. A corn maze, sunflower maze and a little wagon/tractor ride that went to the edge of their property overlooking the fraser valley; it was beautiful! All in all a great afternoon and day off with my little family:) We finished the night off with a bbq and our annual croquet game with friends..such a great way to spend a Saturday!!

Searching for crickets with daddy!

The gorgeous view of the fraser Valley!
Sweaty baby:)
The sunflower maze!
Gorgeous Sunflowers!!

Baby #2~

So I was thinking its time for an update, and I have some new pictures to post as soon as I download them! But for now I can finally share this:)! We are expecting baby number 2!! Its been quite the journey to get here this time around, but we are so grateful for Gods timing!

I am 14 weeks along. I had an ultrasound a week and a bit ago to confirm dates, and I was a few days further than the dates were originally saying. I figured I was though, as I tested at three and a half weeks pregnant because I woke up having hot flashes and having the overall stuffy I can't breathe pregnancy feeling:) So I tested that afternoon, and sure enough! I was over the moon!

I went for my pre-Natal appointment last week but they couldn't find the heartbeat. I wasn't overly worried as I just saw the baby a few days prior but still was not the best feeling. So I went back today and they found it! The little stinker was to busy last time and there was lots of static on the Doppler. But always a sigh of relieve to hear that precious repetitious sound:)

It again has been a very rough trimester for me. Sick, sick, sick. Not overly thrilled and some days I have ended up in tears from shear exhaustion, or because I am getting ready for work while my heads in the toilet..but the one thing that has kept me going is this time around I comprehend the results! I know the prize and I can't wait for it! Especially because I am pretty sure this will be our last...our baby:) Not closing the door for sure, but for now, I am feeling done! and other reasons of course, but again I say that now, we will see:)

But for now I am trying to push through the fatigue and nasuea and cherish this journey.

I will post pictures at a later date when my belly is cuter as for now I just look really bloated! I am still in shock at how large you get the second time around so early:) no muscle tone left I guess*grin*

So that is the news of the day!! Happy august everyone!

July 1st weekend:)

They its summer but I don't believe it:) Its been rainy and gross around here overall. But every spare moment that we get to sneak out side and enjoy some plus 20 weather we are there!

I had to work canada day evening but in the morning I went to our local Canada celebration with my girlfriend for the morning:) The kids had fun checking out the farm animals, seeing big tractors, getting canada day stickers on their faces, and mostly going on a little train ride! I thinks its something we will definetly do in the future! I ended up working late that night and just got home in time to see the last of a few fireworks that we can see from our deck!

The next day Dave had to work in the morning, but got home in time for us to go out and enjoy the day as a family:) It was a lovely day. We hung out at the beach, had some lunch, played in the sand and addy met her first catapiller! Afterwards we went for gelato..delish! I love this age that she is at; where she is starting to enjoy the same things we do, not just run around and take off on me all the time like she did last year;)*grin* So it actually makes a relaxing day for this mama!

summer Funk

Well its June 27th, I have spent maybe two hours in the sun this year thus far, I am pasty white, and not impressed. I don't think I ever remember a more depressing weather season...this has been horrible! The other day someone asked me how my summer was going..I said what summer?? I love summer, I love so much about it. I think if I could I would pick up and move to california pretty darn fast:) Dave and i are both beach bums, sunshine, outside, lazy days, cold drinks kind of people...so summer just fits us, its my outfit of choice:) Lets not even talk about the closet full of adorable summer dresses my girl has waiting to wear...so sad:( I know, pathetic, but it really is these little things that make me happy, and when they disappear they make me sad! So I wait patiently for the sun. we had a little taste of it yesterday and it was lovely. I got home from work about two, we had some friends over for a bit and I actually got to sit out on my deck and soak up some fresh air and sun! Afterwards we headed down to our itty bitty backyard, and it was lovely! I laid on a blanket while addy played in her sandbox, and Dave beside me..it was perfect. What made it even more perfect is every once and a while my girl would come over and hand me a leaf, put her sweet little hand on my back and give me a kiss..so precious she is:) So that is my summer calling, my plee for some sun!!! and now I am done..

ok, rant number two. So we live in a townhouse complex, and the only thing I don't like about the place we reside in is our strata. Well, a few people in it, our strata fees, and well, a few people in it. So here is what my rant is about. We have this family on the corner unit, at the top of the steap hill you have to climb up before looping around to the left. So yes, our complex is steep and windy with turns. So these people like to be our speed police. Now going up a windy very steep hill in a town house complex doesn't allow for a fast speed, especially in an older car. But everytime they manage to stick out there hands and give the death glare with the disapproving shaking of their head like what is wrong with you...slow down!! Ok, so here's my issue. the reason why they get so huffy really has nothing to do with their overall concern for the complext its because they allow their young kids to play and ride their bikes on the street....which i personally have issues with. Its one thing if you live in a complex thats a cul de sac and not many cars coming through, but a busy townhouse complex thats hard to see around tight turns..it makes me nervous. I also am one who is ridiculously paranoid when it comes to kids and cars and safety; there are just too many horror stories for my liking..anyways, this lady got me really mad today, and that is my rant about it..maybe its just me...but I am not to impressed about it especially when said lady doesn't have the guts to come and say something to my face its just a dirty look through a window...

ok, enough of that now:) on to brighter things..tomorrow is my hubby's birthday so I am so looking forward to celebrating him and with him:) it will be quiet and intimate as its a Tuesday night, but also because we have to start saving our money and energy for the big 30th that will be happening next year!! so hard to believe:)!

Hope everyone is doing their best to make the most of this crappy weather as there still is so much good to be enjoyed around us!

Addy turns two!

Two weekends ago now, we celebrated my baby girls second birthday! It was a three day long celebration! Friday night started with dave's side of the family, and celebrating Addy, my niece and nephew, as their birthdays are all within 5 days! Saturday was her friends birthday party:) We got plagged with illness which made the party a bit smaller than expected, but it was nice and intimate without too many meltdowns...so that is a pretty successful toddler party as I am learning now a day! We are so grateful to have so many great friends to celebrate our girls life with and so many great friends to walk this journey of parenthood with! Sunday, was day three, my famil, and our little one was quite puckered out. After church she opened presents and than went right to bed:) So we had a nice quiet adult conversation around the lunch table, and after she woke up we sang happy birthday and had more cupcakes..her favorite!!!

I can't believe my girl is two. It feels like yesterday and forever all at the same time that I have know this girl. At two years old, she is one smart cookie:) She has an amazing vocabulary and comprehnsion skills. She is full of joy and laughter, but a sensitive soul too. She is shy at times, and crazy at other times. She loves to sing, and walk her babies, read books, and run around! She loves out side, adores minnie mouse, and elmo too:) She is truely 100% the best thing I have ever done in my life! She is our joy, our light in the dark days, the thing that keeps me striving to better to do more, and to make this world a better place for her! Addyson grace, there are no words to truely express...my cup is overflowing with love for you..and may you always know it!

Dressing ourselves:)

Addy chilling with her cuz:)
Imitating Elmo..one of her favorites right now:)

Putting iggle piggle to bed:) her new thing, playing make believe..I love it!

Sometimes we wear boots with pajamas because we are cool like that!

we also like to wear our canucks hat backwards with our oatmeal, again because we are cool:)

Basically we just like to wear our hat backwards all the time:)

And we like to walk like an old man in our moms wedding shoes:)

Well this is an update post on life. Its been a while:) but when I looked at the pictures over the last month, I realized that they had a theme...my almost two year old dressing herself! Crazy girl:) Never a dull moment in our household..never;)!

May was another busy month for us...no suprise there! Its amazing how much my life has changed in the past 5 years, and to be honest I don't think I have caught up to it yet..hopefully one of these days I will:) but for now, we keep going! May was overall a good month, from what I can remember. Between the exhausted, the wondering of whats going to come next and everything else that life brings, there was some fun moments. I started to get out more, which was good. I mean with work and everything I am out ALOT, but not fun out:) I started to play a bit, go out with my hubby to hear our friends band, see a movie with my girls, dinner out, girlsnights in..it was good. I need more of that in my life, it really does fuel my fire for life as I am a people person. Sometimes I just have to remind myself of that. but its hard, a never ending learning to balance it all..as the guilt of working three nights of week tells me I should stay home, or not leave Addy with nana again so I can escape for a bit with Dave..I fight it to remind myself, don't forget about you..because without you..meaning me, this ship doesn't keep sailing!:) so I have to continuely remind myself, like most of us mommies out there do; its ok, its ok to still want to have a life, live it, and love it!

So with that we move into June. Which has had an intersting start. We have got smacked down with some lovely car bills the last few months, another one coming, and than on top of the so much uncertainty regarding Dave's job. He was off for awhile which at this point means I will be taking a week off in July by myself, but he went back to work yesterday. and I praise God for that! I definetly can focus on the things that seem to continuely don't want to go "our" way but I am constantly reminded to be grateful for all the good in my life, and the blessings that do over flow..but its hard, I am human, I am selfish, and some days its just dang hard! But I know most of the time thats just fatigue talking, pure, exhaustion. So i give myself a cup of grace, and move forward, because all the good is in moving forward, perserving, finding the hope and loving what you have been given to love in this moment. We have lots of birthday celebrating to do this week, and that is so exciting! Addy turns two next week so this weekend will be FULL of celebrating, so I will be back with the updates on all that!

This is my something to love;) And its a pretty good something to love...good things to come in fair skinned, blue eyed little packages..she keeps my heart going every day:)